This was a very good exercise, but I had to stop it a little more than half way in. Although I am physically feeling better, my body quickly and efficiently told me that this exercise was too much at the moment. I took in the dark cloud from a friend and it constricted my chest and threw me into a coughing fit until I released the rest of the cloud, with love and light, back to the person. After that, I took time to breathe and re-center myself while still listening to the exercise, however, once I was instructed to take in stranger's clouds, I knew it was too much and I stopped the recording.
I have done and continue to do loving kindness work both on myself and those I come into contact with every day. Part of my work has taught me to honor my own sensitivities and my body. My body lets me know if it's able to take a task on or not. In this case, it wasn't healed enough to expand much beyond itself.
The beginning of this exercise reminded me a lot of Eckhart Tolle's work. If any of you have read his books, hopefully you found them as wonderful as I did. In the past, I have had real issues with staying in the present moment and aware. I used to live most of my life disconnected because I was living in the illusion of the future or the pain of the past. There was a lot of life that I missed. This exercise reminded me again that I need to stay connected to my body and my present awareness.
This exercise was a mental workout. I think mental workouts consist of expanding your mental capacity, just like an aerobic exercise expands your oxygen capacity. Guided imagery is one that I like quite well, but I also do meditation to give my mind that needed stillness and quiet time. Many times during meditation, I expand my consciousness as far as I can to see what I can sense. It is quite spectacular at times.
Hi Rhoda,
ReplyDeleteI must agree with you that this weeks exercise was quite enlightening (both positive and not so much). It is great that we are learning how to retrain our minds in order to take in all of the events of the day. Just like you I had a hard time first of all choose one person who I love. The second issue was learning to show loving kindness to myself. I am a pretty positive person. And I give without taking notice. This week, I have learned tha I must be willing to accept as much as I am willing to give.
All in all, this is an audio I will listen to time and time again. Because what I realized is that I do deserve to be loved by others, but mostly by ME!
Bliss & Blessings sent to your clouds!
Deb
I am very glad that you were able to do this exercise and get something out of it. Why do you think it was hard for you to do this exercise? I am confused by how fatuiged you sound about doing this, I know that these exercises do not work for me but it is really sitting (in a chair or whereever) thinking and breathing, I am looking for some understnading here I am not trying to be harsh I do not understand.
ReplyDeleteRecently, I had to remove someone from my inner sphere because she made an accusation that I didn't agree with and was not from a place of light and love. Her darkness has affected someone whom I love dearly as well. It was this second friend that I tried to take in her dark cloud. There are multiple reasons why I think it affected me the way it did, but they may be too personal and too in depth to share on here. I believe in the energy that connects and surrounds everything. Although everyone can tap into this energy, most people are unaware of the connection (our reading this week talks a lot about the unity consciousness which is what I am talking about). People that are aware of this energy and how it interacts with the world around them and their consciousness are more sensitive to the energy itself. When I tried to take in a very negative cloud when I was still recovering from being very sick, it drained me physically and energetically. Hopefully, this helps explain a little better.
DeleteHi Rhonda,
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you were able to immerse yourself in the exercise, even though you weren't able to complete it. I admire that you were open to it and I gather that much, because of how you were affected by taking in the dark cloud of a friend. When I attempted it, I envisioned myself taking in the dark cloud of my father, who is 76 years old and suffering from a host of ailments. I didn't feel affected in a negative way, though, because I imagined the dark cloud dissipating as it entered my heart, transforming into a ray of light, emitting energy that would act as a pain killer for him...a much better alternative to ibuprofin! I wasn't able to complete the exercise, though, because my baby had woken up. Although I'd love to try, it'd be incredibly difficult to set time aside, twice a day, to do this exercise, especially with my husband gone. Sure, it only takes a few minutes to do, but preparing myself by quieting the mind and relaxing before the exercise would take a while.
You definitely seem like someone who is attuned to her body. Keep it up, Rhonda! I enjoy your posts!
Nicole