Unit 6: Assessment

Boy am I having a hard time getting motivated to do my class work this week...


The first exercise, Universal Loving Kindness, was really uplifting. Being a natural healer, I long to help everyone I can. Although this is an impossible feat physically, it is a simple task energetically and this exercise was a great tool to be able to open my heart to the universe and send positive vibrations out to everyone. There is strength in the collective, and if everyone were to do this exercise every day, just imagine what an amazing world we'd create!

The second assessment, I felt, was a good description of what I like to call "checking in with me," and with every other exercise we've done in this class, it brought this moment and my life into clearer focus. If you've read any of my previous posts, you probably know that I made a huge life change over the last couple weeks by moving to Portland. Today is my 1 week anniversary of the move, and a few days ago the reality of what I did set in and I was overwhelmed by a deep depression that brought me to a standstill. I have been prone to depression the last few years and this was no where near the worst that I've ever been through, but it's still hard being in a new place with no friends or support and it can be scary. However, I did pull myself out of it (by scrubbing floors and cabinets if you care to know my secret) and this assessment helped me better understand why I was depressed.

Since moving out of the comfortable and protected environment I was in, I have been focusing on healing all the patches I've put it to my energetic quilt. Everyday I make sure I am eating fresh foods that nourish my body, mind and spirit. I'm also paying attention to how much activity I'm getting in a day - making sure I am getting enough, but not overdoing it. This assessment pointed out that these tasks were a good foundation to getting my life back on track, however, there are still many levels to go before I get to a point I'm happy with. It was some of these steps, especially in the worldly quadrant, that had me stressed, worried, and depressed. Yes, my life is going to be restricted until I get a couple key factors in place, however, I need to keep a positive attitude and an upward focus instead of feeding negative energy into the situation. In addition, I will keep walking the neighborhoods and getting to know my new environment, keep my apartment clean and organized, get back into the swing of journaling, explore some spiritual outlets, and increase my physical activity.


P.S. - I wanted to add a comment about the cleaning in relation to depression. It really does work! Many of us project our inner state into our environment which is why the more chaotic we are internally the more of a disaster our living space turns into. I have run into this personally many times. The next time you're depressed, try cleaning your room. I promise it'll make you feel much better!